my cup overfloweth

i remember how i used to stare at your older brother while he slept and it's as if the world inside of me would explode through my chest.

i don't remember the day you smiled at me for the first time, the kind of smile that wasn't just gas or a guardian angel chat. i made you smile and you made me feel like the most beautiful person in the world, lighting up your world. and in your eyes, the world was everything. and i was at the center of it.

how many times have i used your helplessness as an excuse not to get up, just so i can feel your body against mine, pliant and trusting in my arms, your warmth bringing sweet lassitude into my limbs? i have often prayed that you stay little and angelic forever, my perfect doll.

when your kuya embraces you, soothes away your tears, scolds me for kissing you too much, i am in a place filled with light and joy. those are moments when god leans over and winks at me, as if saying, "ain't life great?"

i live for a thousand and one moments, and they all contain you, kimi, and your kuya mikka. i will not survive if each time you smile at me, or your kuya is overwhelmingly sweet, is counted as nitroglycerine in the cutest purple bottle.