right now my hormones are playing havoc on my body and emotions. just last night, while writing an email to a good friend (whom i have never met but would love to), tears started clouding my vision and i ended up sobbing on my husband's lap.
i don't know of what i'm scared, really. giving birth alone in a foreign country in the middle of winter could be among the factors... being among fellow filipinos who cannot empathise with my situation as a married and pregnant woman. sigh. i miss my barkada back home. the cyber blogkada i have sometimes aggravates the loneliness and feelings of self-pity. the people in there are very empathetic and sympathetic... but the most i can get close to them is through my keyboard and computer screen. i would give quite a lot just to embrace any one of my fellow berks. talk about wishful thinking.
and my hunger cycle has gone haywire. i get hungry practically every 2 hours or so... but not all kinds of food appeal to me. i've been craving for thai and italian food for the past 2 weeks but the husband has ignored my parinigs and insists on the typical oily filipino fare that turns my stomach! ugh, the sight of so much fat swimming in its own oil is sickening. i would do anything for spicy tom yum soup and chicken pandan... oh dear, this is not making things any better.
enough of this whining.
if something is worth doing, it's worth doing well, baby
10 comments:
Dear Lara, I think you're still in your craving stage. I can only wish you're in my neghborhood para iabot ko na lang sa bakuran niyo ang Tom Yum goom at phad tai. What kung i-try mo na lang lutuin, I am sure someone can send you a recipe. Tat z
guess what tat z? my husband and son went out tonight while i was in dutch class and bought me thai food!!! they got me the soup and wrapped chicken, meron pang fresh vegetable salad thrown in for good measure. i haven't been this happy eating-wise in the last two weeks. i told my husband, "the food's so good i feel like sex!" mwahahahaha
i can just really imagine how i'd be like when i finally get my chance to be preggy...
anyway... embrace the highs and lows... there's just no getting over this, just going through them...
a lot of people love you, and a lot of people will support and understand :)
*mwah*
I think what you're going through is natural. Swing mood ba tawag dun? Ay ewan. MAhina talaga memory ko e. Anyway, whatever mood they call it, here's a hug.
((rolly))
I know that stage and I wish you are have the strength to distinguish when it is something worth stressing over because it can affect you and your baby...people who cares about you will extend understanding knowing what you are going through right now so don't worry much. As for the food, have what will make you happy and not sick - give in to your craving. It will not last long :) *hugs*
Ok lamang po, mag-whine. Whine ng whine, it's ok. Mas mahirap if you keep it all bottled up. Your baby might come out a genius pero ala-Beethoven ang temperament. The Berks are here for you! Kung me free time lang kami ni soulmate, dadalawin ka namin dyan. Pareho namin din kasing love and Belgian chocos.
Here's a link you might find useful:
Depression During Pregnancy
mec, tito rolly, doc emer, and cerridwen: you fellow berks are the shot i need to boost my mood! since this blog, i've been able to eat thai and chinese food. :) i'm lucky!
dear frankiko, i deleted your comment because i took out its antecedents. needless to say, i love you very much for being ready to defend me no matter what. i love you for keeps dude.
If I could fly there and give you comfort even for just a day, I would. (hugs)
OMG, you're pregnant? Congratulations! I personally think my four pregnancies were the happiest times of my life. There's nothing quite as special as carrying another human being inside you. How far along are you?
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